Today feels strange. I sense that things are dynamic but off, with emotional struggles for security & comfort combined with focus on wishes, dreams, hopes, needs. I sense the ingredients for drama, and have no desire to be a part of it. I'm missing my home, the home I made that I cannot go back to, and am unattached to the new home I'll be creating when we return to that space, as it truly does not exist yet. I see that my sacred ground, my homestead/hearth, will manifest only when I return to make it so. That process will finally begin this coming week, and I meditate on cleansings & blessings for this new beginning. It doesn't help that I accidentally kicked a birch this morning tho... *sigh*
I consulted 'Tad' over lunch (The Answer Deck is my gyspy-based oracle on the road) and inquired about the remainder of the day. I pulled "Woman of the World", "Scandal", and "Journey".
This deck so speaks to me. I was the urbanite, social butterfly, always out & about. My apartment was the hub of my lifestyle, and the core was my backyard. I would sit on a patio to do a reading, or setup picnic by the canal for a spell. Then my building was infested, and I moved to *his* parents' home in ruralburbia, and the scandal has been exhausting. They threatened tenants with eviction if the preparation was not exactingly done (with an *extensive* list to follow), then one neighbour had a biopsy from a bite that he infected, then wigged out with paranoia & moved, while the only unit of issue has a disabled man who just doesn't get this hoopla. I finally confronted my landlord, not aggressively, but proactively, to deal with this man & his infestation. They've lied to me since, and the drama continues. I've been out of my home for fourteen weeks today.
This journey is the renesting of my spirit in a space that belongs to me even more so than before... and I'm prepared to make this happen. Smudging my whole life as a new beginning...
This site offers a reading based on your current colour preferences. I've tried it during different stresses & moods, and find it fascinating. I was especially amused when I did a reading during my headache, then after it!
Enjoy!
PS: if you saw this post & commented earlier, I had to abort mid-creation due to the bad hosting on this site... HTML hell I tell youÂ
PPS: the link to site is under the image... sorry if this caused confusion, and thanks Lisa!